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This week
I’ve just felt like this. I know it’s my brain lying to me. I know it’s going to pass. It doesn’t make it easier when I’m in it. Self awareness is quite different from self actualization. It’ll get better, but for now, I will keep on keeping on.
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Today I learned a lesson
Today the universe sent me a reminder. As I was walking back to my place, I saw some of the neighborhood cats. I proceeded to open a sachet of wet food I had in my pocket and offered it to the cats. As one of them was pregnant and we had not made friends before, it swatted at me and hissed very defensively. I walk away and realize 3 minutes later that I had started bleeding. See I knew the answer, but I was, for about 30 minutes, in denial that I had to get shots. Antirabies, anti tetanus, etc. I delayed until friends had confirmed that I indeed needed…
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We miss you
You’re still here.
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This year’s summer plan
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A decade ago
We were all together. We miss you every single day Jaye.
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This is how I feel right now
Out of shape, can’t remember what I used to look like, and who I was. -J
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What made me happy, September 25, 2023
Status report: MRI day. Trying not to have surgery, but I might need it. What’s made me happy lately: 1. Chester’s 9th year with us. He has saved my life too many times to count. He has also cost me hundreds of thousands of pesos of damage, because he only chews expensive things. At least he has a sense of humor though. He’s become slow, his fur is less shiny, he’s lost weight, but he’s still my Chester. I can’t imagine a life without him. Here’s hoping I don’t have to find out soon. 2. Hotpot. Our family has a new favorite hotpot place, and I love to see it.…
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What made me happy lately, July 27, 2023
Status report: I wish I could go back to sleeping 8 hours straight without sleep ai
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What made me happy, September 18, 2023
Status report: Jetlagged and under the weather. Going hack to routine will take a second, but a welcome return. What’s made me happy lately: 1. The opportunity to be away. I have been able to see my favorite cities on the other side of the world, and it was wonderful. A breather from all the grief. A way to refresh and reset. Even if it was a monumental hit to my wallet, it was worth it. There are memories I will keep with me for a lifetime, and a perspective that I rarely get from my cocoon of safety. I am eternally grateful for the happenstance of availability and ability.…
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This is a sticker — well a sign
You still have time. Your heart is beating, you’re breathing. Do the thing.