Jodythinks

A board+a wave=happiness

I went surfing last weekend after it seems like a decade (it was a few years ago) and I wanted to kick myself for taking such a long time to go back to the board.

See, calling me athletic would be a stretch. Even if i do have the gait of a linebacker, I have no sport to call my own. I have not been part of a team since highschool, volleyball was a girl’s only option and even then I wasn’t exactly stellar at spiking, in fact i didn’t know how. The fact that my team became Intramurals champion two years in a row only proved one thing, that i had spectacular teammates.

Not that I hate sports. I like basketball, but only pickup games. Badminton’s fun too. Even volleyball once in a while. Truth be told it’s more laziness that stops me from really getting into a sport.

But I digress.

Surfing, I’ve loved since I first got up on a board. True there was an instructor following my every move, picking out the wave, pushing my board so I can catch it, but hell yeah, the first time I stood up was a hell of a rush that I couldn’t wait to paddle out so I could try it again. Waiting for that crest, heart pounding in my chest every time coz I’m not sure I was gonna be standing up, was a high I wanted like a drug. I must’ve annoyed that instructor at my eagerness and pep, but hey, I was addicted.

Sure, my nose got shot up with water each time I wiped out. I collided with other people since I couldn’t exactly steer. I almost got hit in the head a couple of times with the board. When we got to our room I could barely move my arms from paddling.

It was worth it. That serene feeling of almost gliding to shore, it’s incomparable.

So it was with an extreme case of butterflies when we headed to get our first hour of surf lessons. I had a pounding headache, and it was raining, but hey, we figured, bigger better waves right?

Wrong. Waves were few and far between, and my headache got worse when I found out I had lost my (only pair of) footwear on the shore.

(I’m going to miss those flipflops, they’ve been with me a couple years, and to a LOT of mini adventures)

But hell, after the first few wipeouts, I was getting my sea legs back and balancing on the surfboard I thought I was too fat for. I started grinning.  The feeling was back. All worries, annoyances, little heartbreaks, crazy thoughts, gone. It was just me and the board (True, I was still being pushed by the instructor to catch the wave, but it was on my own on each wave after that), racing to shore.

By the second hour of lessons the next day, even with little sleep, i was walling. (Instead of going straight, going to the side for a longer ride) The instructor was even teaching me to pick waves on my own and teaching me the right paddling techniques to catch it.

Next time (which is hopefully soon) I’m gonna surf on my own. Look out world!

Jodythinks

Life is short

Last February, my uncle, (dad’s cousin) went to the doctor for a checkup for headaches. They found a baseball sized tumor in his brain, behind his right eye. He was sent home.

Last Tuesday he passed away.

They say he only waited for my aunt (his sister) to arrive, coz the day after he was gone.

He was 55.

Life is too short to stay depressed. This i know.

Go for what makes you happy. Coz you never know when it’s your time to go.

Jodythinks

The blues, the reds, the greens

I’ve got the blues.

The birthday blues.

This is new. I am usually a big fan of birthdays. Celebrating them, planning surprises, thinking of little gifts for the people in my life. I love finding the perfect present, the best way to celebrate. It’s that person’s own little day, that only happens once a year, and, the sap that I am, i try my darndest to be the catalyst for them to be happy it’s their birthday.

Now my birthday, this year, I feel like hiding under the covers and putting out a sign that says “Go away.”

I’m turning 23 in a couple of weeks and every time i have that thought this ominous, heavy feeling takes over me. I’m not really sure what it is, but it just happens. I’m usually a happy bunny anticipating what to do, how to properly do it up.

I’m just tired.

I don’t even want to think of a party where I invite people and all I get are replies of “Pass.”

And don’t even get me started on the standard question: “Sinong pupunta? (Who‘s gonna be there?) It kinda kills the sentiment of: ‘Please be there coz I want to be with the people I love on my birthday and you’re one of them”.

I know I have a lot to be thankful for this year. I’m alive, I’m healthy, I have good friends, my family loves me.  I have more than enough. And for that I AM grateful.

But i don’t know if i feel like celebrating the me I’ve been this year.

Jodythinks

Song of the day:

Absolutely (Story of a Girl) by Nine Days

Vintage classic.

Especially these lines:

 Now how did we wind up this way
Watching our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting
Wearing the clothes or the soles that we choose
Now how do we get there today
When we’re walking too far for the price of our shoes

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

🙂