Have a happy new year! Drink, smoke, do whatever, just be merry. Toast to the successes of the year, say farewell to the failures, look to the bright future ahead. Here’s a toast to the coming year. 🙂

I’ve been thinking about 2009. 2009 has been insane. The highest highs. The lowest lows. Cliche as it may seem, it’s been a rollercoaster year. It seems that the adage that tears always follows happiness and vice versa really proved right this year. Scariest thing was, I lost my trust this year. One thing I never thought I’d lose, and by people I never thought would break it. I was blindsided, crushed, devastated. I’m still reeling. Like broken bones, it’s taken time to heal, and it’ll never be the same. It’s not as strong as it was before, there are still cracks in the  mend. Call me insane. Call me…

No, not a drunken sleeping off at a public restaurant. A simple night out. With friends. And a Mr. Kabab wash off of the beer buzz they get and me just eating my special chelo feeling the night air. I’ve been running around like a chicken with my head cut off for too long. My head is always buzzing about things I should just forget, set aside. I’m giving myself ulcers and migraines for no good reason. I can’t have that with Christmas coming up.