Lost.

Growing up, I’ve always been told to be good to others. Work hard. Do what you can. Try your best. My parents raised me to be a good person, keep my head down, and know that if something is due you, it’ll go your way.

As I am becoming an adult, I have learned the hard way that this isn’t necessarily true.

Life isn’t fair. People don’t necessarily get what they deserve. You don’t get treated well by people just because you treat them well, and even if you do your best, you won’t get what you were hoping for.

I am not one to deny my fairly sheltered existence. I have had great opportunities, I went to great schools, had food on the table three times (or more) a day, got all that I needed and were given chances to get what I wanted.

I’ve had a good life and that’s more than a lot of people can say and I know that.

It’s just now I’m just a little bit lost.

I guess not getting what you thought you were due or strove for can do that to you. The direction you were going, what you had in store for you because the plan was to achieve what you were to achieve by doing all you can, doesn’t work out, the dreams you thought you had, are destined to be just that, dreams that will stay in your subconscious.

So what do you do when life kicks you in the shin and takes the cookie you had back?

If you’re like me, this would be your initial reaction:

And I can’t blame you. Disappointments can be debilitating. It just makes you want to ignore the rest of your day, curl up on the bed, or just lie on the floor.

I am not saying that this is necessarily a bad thing. Dealing with what you’re feeling is good. Keeping things locked away won’t help you, it can actually make it worse.

Take the time to deal with what you’re feeling and let it out. Cry. Eat. Rant. Do what you need to do to get it out of your system and make sure it’s been addressed in the way you need to.

But now what?

What do you do when the direction your life was headed is no longer headed that way? When the plan is no longer possible?

Find a new plan. A new dream. You are not a tree. If you don’t like where you are, move. (I read that somewhere and it stuck)

I am finding a new dream. Formulating a new plan. Maybe it works, maybe it doesn’t. Good thing is, I have the resources and ability to rework the plan. I have been educated. I have been equipped with what I need to see my life through and I will be using these to find the new dream, the new plan, the new direction.

Wish me luck.