Mondays are always a mix for me. It feels like a slow start, but also a quiet one. Like a foggy sunrise, or staring at a drip filter on my first coffee. I’m still on my To All the Boys playlist, and the song that’s on loop this morning is Gordi’s Something Like This. It feels like a Monday morning for me, quiet, hopeful, but also a little bit pensive. The lyrics that hit me today are from the first verse: Take my eyes, but take it slowAnd my demise is finding homeAnd someone’s questions can you knowThat people are looking for somethingThey think they lost long ago And when…

Here I am again with my strings. I think music is made so much better with an orchestra, and while I usually am not a fan of covers, this one has been on loop all day. And it’s been on my mind lately, wanting to go back to a simpler life. It’s been complicated lately, in some parts and thinking about leaving it all behind can be tempting. When are you gonna come downWhen are you going to landI should have stayed on the farmI should have listened to my old man You know you can’t hold me foreverI didn’t sign up with youI’m not a present for your friends…

Sometimes you just need to get away, and I feel like my body is just itching for a change of scenery, of new things. My tendency to just fall back into routine is so sensibly adult that it’s almost funny. Even with music, I tend to repeat things, albums, songs, until I get sick of it. This song is one of them. For a time I listened to this, and the rest of the Warm Bodies soundtrack constantly, on repeat. Then after a bit I couldn’t listen without shaking my head. But now I’m back to the loop. Been packing all night long to get ready for some funAnd you…

I have to admit how much I like To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before. I have written about the movie before, and I watched the sequel as soon as it came out. One of my favorite things about the movies are the soundtracks. They are great background music that will keep you engaged but not distracted. My second favorite from the first movie is Anna North’s Lovers. It actually reads like a breakup song but it’s just so catchy. I’m in the dark Show a little loving Shine a little light on me It’s a chill song, and honestly, it just brings me back to that scene and those…

I was talking to a couple of friends yesterday, about a lot of things, mostly how ridiculous I’ve been lately. And I have been ridiculous. I have let my mind wander too far, too much, and let my id take over for most of my decision making. But that is neither here and there, and you know what? Hearing myself say all these things OUT LOUD, well, just has made me realize how absurd I’ve been. I was both there feeling the release of talking things through with other people, and also seeing it as an outsider and shaking my head at how nuts I’ve been. After I got home,…

While January has read like the book of Revelation (this is what growing up Catholic gets you, scary bible references) and it seems like February is going to continue being difficult for all of us involved. I do think we have to make our own little moments of joy and/or quiet when we can. This weekend has been a great reset, to remember there is still quiet in a perpetually noisy world. While this may not be the prettiest view, and we had to plan the crap out of everything we did, I’m glad to have been part (maybe I planted the idea and everyone else ran with it? Who…

I really should stop drinking alcohol with caffeine, or maybe I should stop drinking altogether. Or maybe someone in this damn room should be awake with me, but really I may just be jealous that everyone is snoozing away. And no one is conscious! to listen to half alcohol/half caffeine thoughts in the middle of the night. But as always, I digress. I’ve been thinking about sincerity. How rare a commodity it is, that every now and then, you have to wonder how people really are, and who really is sincere. Because you see, I’m pretty bad at gauging sincerity. This is perhaps a major flaw in the work I’m…