Jodythinks

What made me happy, June 5, 2023

Status report: Insomnia and female problems, made much easier by good friends and the internet.

What made me happy last week:

1. Finding a new snack phase. I go through food phases. Recently, I am all about sushi and dumplings for when we go to restaurants, and that has been fun. Just this past week though, cultural introduction to my new obsession of a local snack made out of the excess from communion wafer production. Really kicks in my tasteless snacking reflex from childhood.

2. Risks that turn out well. In a rare instance of spontaneity, I made a change and trusted other people to take over changing my appearance. So far it’s going okay, just feels different.

3. New projects. This weekend, in a fit of hope, I bought 4 pots of herbs. With my track record with plants, it’s a long shot, but one can dream.

Wendy Xu has encapsulated how it feels right now

Songs of the week:

Goodbye Yellow Brick Road by Elton John, version by Sara Bareilles

Requiem from Dear Evan Hansen by Kaitlyn Dever, Adam Pino and Amy Adams

Like Real People Do by Hozier

Closing Time by Semisonic

Jodythinks · Love/Life

What made me happy as of June 12th, 2023

Status report: Hives are back and angrier than ever. Finding a better way to keep myself active so I can sleep better is also a little difficult, but not impossible. Consistency really is something I need to work on, especially with all these medications.

The bright spots of the previous week:

1. Finding The Clumsy Lass. I find solace in poetry, especially in quieter days, when all I feel is the compulsion to yell out because no one is listening. This particular piece really spoke to me:

So the next time

my heart gets drunk on adrenaline

just by looking into someone’s eyes,

I’d rather not fall.

I’d choose to walk,

gradually,

in a pace not too slow

that I miss every chance I get,

and not too fast

that I forget to even think.

I have a tendency to want to run towards things I like with no thoughts of self preservation, or, when hurt, completely shut down.

2. Planning things. After a long wait, good news about long shots turned our way, and now, good things await. There’s a lot to pin down, but in good ways.

Songs of the week:

Miles Apart by Nick Wilson

Favorite Crime by Olivia Rodrigo

Happier Than Ever by Billie Eilish

-J