I’ve just felt like this. I know it’s my brain lying to me. I know it’s going to pass. It doesn’t make it easier when I’m in it. Self awareness is quite different from self actualization. It’ll get better, but for now, I will keep on keeping on.

Today the universe sent me a reminder. As I was walking back to my place, I saw some of the neighborhood cats. I proceeded to open a sachet of wet food I had in my pocket and offered it to the cats. As one of them was pregnant and we had not made friends before, it swatted at me and hissed very defensively. I walk away and realize 3 minutes later that I had started bleeding. See I knew the answer, but I was, for about 30 minutes, in denial that I had to get shots. Antirabies, anti tetanus, etc. I delayed until friends had confirmed that I indeed needed…