Jodythinks · Love/Life

I really wish the universe would just stop handing me things that will make me stronger and just give me a win.

Less than a month after we lost Chester, our last dog Backo left us too. He was six and got sick really quickly. It was the first time we had to decide to end a pet’s pain. It happened very quickly, and the vet that helped him go over the rainbow bridge was kind enough to let us do it at home.

I’m grateful. That he didn’t suffer long. That we were able to say goodbye and help him through it. That it went peacefully. That we could afford the choice that didn’t force him through more pain. But for the whole of his existence I felt bad for Baracko. I should, and could have done better for him, but I didn’t.

So now we are a dogless, Chesterless household and now going into a new calendar year, we’re not any closer to being a home good enough for a new pet to be in. And i’m not placing blame unto anyone in particular. I’m hardly a rabbit mom sometimes, the amount of time I’m not home. I know I can only do this because Joannaman loves Peeper as much as I do. And I’m lucky to have that. And I admit I was not that when she needed me to for Oprah. And I will carry that in my conscience for the rest of my days.

So I’m asking the universe to stop challenging me to scar tissue and to please just send me kindness. A gentle breeze instead of the rough winds that have been ripping through my emotional sails.

Please?

Love/Life

Are you done hearing about a dead rabbit yet?

And i find it hard to explain why my heart is broken

For one that couldn’t speak but always listened

Who wasn’t there when I adventured but was there when I was lying down alone crying

Who always understood when I needed a bit more help

Who loved who I loved

And sat with me when I had to say goodbye to them

Your life was too short and mine excruciatingly long

Meet me in the after.

Gratitude · Jodythinks · Love/Life · Thanks

Chester Buko 2014-2024

He was loved and he loved us back.

The calmest, most loving rabbit I have ever had, Chester peacefully passed in my arms Saturday night. He had a challenging last three months of his life, vet visits, liver disease, almost a month in total of confinement.

In the end, he gave it his all, and held on until he could, gave us time to say goodbye. He laid down his head and was gone.

He saw us through 10 years of good milestones, and broken hearts. He was our designer item authenticator. He was a vet favorite. He was the best bunny brother for all his bunny sisters. They have now welcomed him over the rainbow bridge, and he can run again. Eat all the basil and banana he can. Flop again.

Thank you Chester for everything, and when it’s my time I hope I’ll see you again. That I’ll deserve your company when I cross.

I love you my buko buks.

Jodythinks · Love/Life · Songs to listen to

I think you should listen to Gracie Abrams’s I Love You, I’m Sorry today

Because of lyrics like these —

Two Augusts ago
I told the truth, oh, but you didn’t like it, you went home
You’re in your Benz, I’m by the gate
Now you go alone
Charm all the people you train for, you mean well but aim low
And I’ll make it known like I’m getting paid

That’s just the way life goes

Listen here

-J

Jodythinks

Jaye

Jaye it’s been a year. We miss you. There have been events that you would’ve been there for. Cherry had a son. Mac went to Tagaytay. There was a baby shower. We wanted to do a potluck. There was a season you weren’t there for.

It feels like a lifetime. And we’ll miss you a lifetime. I can’t put into words how much so. You were there to celebrate with us. You were there to be sad with us.

You showed up for every single one of us. All we hope is that wherever you are, it’s in a place that is as much a place of happiness and sunshine that you were for the people around you. That you get to try everything you’ve read about and want to. That you are at peace.

We will try to make you proud of us Jaye. To do new things, and accomplish incredible milestones in your spirit.

We love you, so much Jaye.